i don't need my (yesterday) needs anymore

i'm sick looking at a beautiful dress and 3 pairs of shoes lying beside my bed :'(
let's just go to bed with them,
and may i have a nice dream tonight...
nightmare's for tommorrow :(

i'm awake. i am a child. just like we all are.

in my nest,
being a 4 years old child is so much fun. nothing more i want than to be 4 years old like forever.
too much love is best. 
but being an early 20's child is horrible. i have my own opinion and i know that i have choices. man, i hate that.
too much love will kill.
looks like daddy's girl isn't made of sugar and spice and everything nice after all.

where should i live?
in my 4 years old or now in my early 20's.
let's not talk about future, i'm not nostradamus.

it's killing me when i thought about facing or running.
i forget the word 'facing'.
i won't run thinking about my perfect childhood days.
but i'll run as fast as i can thinking about now (and my future which is my dream) 

Everyone knows you can't choose your family, but you can choose others.
is everything they tell us is right and never wrong?
or do i have my right..

the only thing feared by the spawn of Satan: Mom and Dad.
i feel that bitches don't just happen, they're made.
in this early 20's life there comes a moment when she realizes parents may be more messed up than i am.
that's sad :'(

nothing else to do right now. i'm not dreaming.
i'm a child just like we all are.

"Sometimes you need to step outside, clear your head, and remind yourself of who you are and where you wanna be" -Kristen Bell.

watching them is what i called dreaming when my eyes are opened.

i wish for this dream

mad for pendant!

i'm craving for cute pendants.. 

this one is a locket :)

found a cute one @topshop and @phobe and Chloe

(sigh) they're breathless..

Grace Coddington ! she's legendary

have you heard about her? then you have to :)
buy or borrow VOGUE magazine, look for the fashion spread, and look for the stylist named Grace Coddington
unless you love to read, please watch 'September Issue'.

then you'll find this legendary creative director of American Vogue Magazine, Grace Coddington.
after over four decades as a fashion stylist, no wonder she (and her work also) is adorable ..

Meet my favourite one,
once she quotes that we shouldn't close our eyes everytime and everywhere we go, every single thing outside there might be any of your inspiration (or dream, for me :D )
no wonder she has wonderful works!

                    Meet, Grace Coddington!

Grace Coddington!

and a cat! :)

now meet her amazing work of art!

amazing, right? :)

Who loves Mr.Curry??

i'm hoooooome and i'm so full!
thankyou, Mr.Curry for being so nice serving delicious foods with your cute place and also your cute Mr.Curry Cloooooownnnn Doll (love it!)

kisses for Mr.Curry! XOXO

hungry face

And prepare for your spicy and sweet dream.. (you'll wake up hungry, guys!) :)

salmon cheese curry rice

hamburg doria! guess what's on the top of it? ALL CHEESE :)

Green tea ice cream with dorayaki! best part of all :) 

Dream of them, and wake up starve..
Please try Mr.Curry and love him like i do! XOXO

a bead dream :D (and a story behind it)

whoo hooooo!
i bought some beads at last :)
accesorizing is my another dream..
wish me luck, i'm trying on it

Aren't they sweet?

And oooo yeaaah
there's interesting story behind the beadshopping huahaha LOL

ketika gue berjalan sambil senyam-senyum karena puas mendapatkan benda-benda menyenangkan ini,
menguaplah seorang abang-abang yang jualan tas seraya berkata :
"Hoooaaaaaaaaeeeeeemmmmmm..AYAM GORENG PAKE NASII PAKE KECAAAAAAAAPPPP!!!!"
Huoaaa dia meratap sambil marah atau apa ya? nadanya itu lhooo haha, you must hear yourself! LOL

sabar ya mas, buka nya masih ntar sore :)
have a nice -fried chicken+rice+soy sauce- dream :D

Au revoir, my girrl!

My girl, Aubry Beer
is going to Amsterdam to 'study' (off course!) ;)

So let's hope the best for Aubry Beer!
have a great journey, girl.. :) we'll miss you for sure..
have a nice dreeam, aubryy.. zie je!

home house home house..

Late night, listening to Bonita's song called : "Rumahku".. 

(you should really listen to her -live is best, anyway- , and you're going to feel like dreaming -a best one-)

Rumahku

(bonita/ boris simanjuntak)

di rumahku
sangkar indah yang nyaman, tempatku beristirahat

di rumahku
istana terpencil yang hangat, tempatku meminta

di sini cinta dan kasih mengalir
namun deras arusnya menenggelamkanku
waktu akan kucuri untukku bernafas
di sini cinta dan kasih tak terbatas, hingga luasnya dunia tak sempat kutapaki

andai kupergi atas nama cinta dan sayang
tidak adalah urusan kata pertama yang hilang
andai kulari atas nama cinta dan kasih sayang
tidak adalah urusan kata pertama terbilang

di rumahku
seharusnya tempat kuberpulang, bukan tempat ku beranjak
di rumahku
seharusnya tempat,kumenumpahkan jiwa, bukan tempat ku menyimpan rahasia

Well..well.. i'm still listening to this song right now (REPEATSSSSS).. makes me thinking..

are you having a nightmare?

hmm i'm thinking that it's like when you realize that you're not actually yourself at home.

wearing such a mask, holding thousands pounds of secrets in your hands.

and when you step your feet at home, you often feels like you'd better be out there.

i mean, in your own home? i don't think it's the way it should be.. 

too much love, also makes you have to run to the farawayland to find another yours :'(

but, shits happens, right?

so it's time for the sweet dream, darlin..

di rumahku
sangkar indah yang nyaman, tempatku beristirahat

di rumahku
istana terpencil yang hangat, tempatku meminta..

 sweet dreams are hopes... or wishes